Words by Nick Person
A question that has come up in the rhythm of my life as of late is “am I willing to be willing?” I have gotten really good at answering this question. I mean really good. Of course I am willing to be willing. This question comes up in various scenarios in my life. But it mostly comes up when it comes to the invitation that the Lord gives me on a daily basis to be a part of what he is doing. See being willing to be willing means, that maybe I am not ready to take a step right now, but I am willing to consider it. Let me give you a quick example, “Am I willing to get a full back tattoo?” My answer right now would be “No.” But “am I willing to consider at some point to be open to getting a back tattoo?” I would say “Yes.” I am willing to be willing.
See, being willing to be willing is the first step in being willing. I know that may sound very confusing, but it really isn’t that complicated. I may not be ready or willing to take a step right now, but I am willing to consider taking a step. Hopefully you are somewhat in the know and kind of get what I am trying to say. Let us press on. See I thought that I have been willing to be willing. I actually thought that I have just been plain willing. But under further examination of my life, I have actually been willing to do only what I am comfortable with. I am willing to move around in the boat, but I am not so willing to step out of the boat. See for me, I like to keep things comfortable and in my realm of being able to accomplish them on my own, but the Lord keeps inviting me out of the boat. In my own way, I have convinced myself that I truly am willing to be willing, but I am actually not. I am actually only willing to stay in the boat and find a new seat. Being made aware of this did not make me happy. Being aware of this forced me to exam my heart, even worse, I had to allow the Holy Spirit to exam my heart and find any un right way in me. That is a scary position to put yourself in, because you are not fully sure of what may come to the surface. For me, the true story of my willingness has been exposed. So I had a choice to make when the truth was exposed, do something about it or continue to do the same old thing. Of course, it sounds good to say that you don’t want to do the same old thing, but the true story of my heart wants to stay comfortable and not embrace change, because change is hard. Let me say that again, change is hard. Who likes to endure hard things?
Even though hard things bring about the most and lasting change, it is at the end of the day…change. I don’t know if it is my old age or my heart is becoming a little softer, but I don’t want to continue to get what I have always gotten, I want something more. The only way that I am going to get more, is to truly be willing! But being willing means that I am not just “willing” to do what is convenient for me, but I am truly willing to finally get out of the boat and embrace what is best, embrace the invitation that Jesus has given me, to join him in kingdom work and to embrace what is best. But I don’t know about you, but that scares me, because that means that I am not in control. The funny thing is about that, I wasn’t ever in control. The appearance of control and actually being in control are two totally different things. There is a verse that I have been chewing on that has helped put this in perspective. Check it out…
So let me put this the way that I heard it. “Nick, my eyes are watching the whole earth to see those who are truly willing to join me in the invitation to be a part of something bigger than they are. For those that are willing I will give my strong support to them, so that they do not have to do it alone.” Of course that is the Nick Person translation. But that is what my heart heard. That is what strengthened my heart. That is how I am truly able to be willing. That is willingness defined. So the question that you have to ask yourself is,” are you truly willing to step out of the boat and not just change your seat in the boat.” Maybe you are not fully willing in this moment, but could you at least be willing to be willing. I am still in process and I feel like I fail more than I win, but I know the Lord is the one who supports me to do what he has called me to do. Knowing who has me and who has called me out of the boat allows me to put a foot on the waves and begin to surf. So let us be a people that surf together because we know who controls the waves.
Be blessed and let our willingness be true!