We had the perfect marriage; a second marriage for both of us, and we had both learned so much from our prior experiences. And then one day, at nearly our 3 year wedding anniversary, my husband called and said "I have to tell you something. I have been flirting with (woman) and it's pretty bad." "Pretty bad" ended up meaning a physical sexual affair. This happened almost 10 years to the day of finding out my first husband was having an affair. I had been through this before; it ended my 1st marriage. In that split second, the first thought I had was pure anger- not at my husband but at God. I had already gone through this, and I didn't want to do it again.  My husband had a past of finding his self-worth in what a woman thought of him, not what God thought. My heart was destroyed. I truly thought of our marriage as close to perfect. He admitted his fault, even calling me the "perfect" wife. After lots of counseling for both of us (thank you Brian Hackney), we are at 18 months post-discovery, and we are both healing incredibly. We have both found our self-worth in what God thinks of us, not who others say or think we are, not what our spouse thinks of us I have gained so much trust back in him, and our marriage is better than before. We have both found our self-worth in what God thinks of us, not who others say or think we are or what our spouse thinks of us. Our marriage is stronger than ever; we both love and depend and trust the other, but we fully rely on God.

We had the perfect marriage; a second marriage for both of us, and we had both learned so much from our prior experiences. And then one day, at nearly our 3 year wedding anniversary, my husband called and said "I have to tell you something...

      Growing up, I was introduced to God by my grandmother. She took me to church with her. As a young girl, I started noticing that my life was different. Some of my friends lived with their biological mothers and fathers; I did not. I would use my pain as an excuse to be unhappy. In 2015, I found myself in a relationship that I had no business being in. Not only was there a 1,500 miles distance, but also, I was continuously lying to my parents and doing everything to keep this relationship going. I ended up getting hurt and carried a lot of resentment because of it.  After about 6 weeks of severe depression, my mom decided to send me to CTS 2016. I attended  This Wild Life  last year and had my first connection with God. But, as we all know, there are pits that we fall into even after reaching peaks. The past came back to haunt me mentally. I can't explain why, but I could not stop thinking about my failed relationship. I tried diluting my pain by focusing on getting back into another relationship. I would ask, "Why do I still feel the pain of the past?"  One night, God spoke to me. He said "I would not take you out of a relationship physically, just to keep you in it mentally and emotionally." God spoke to me through amazing people, Marissa and Brynna at camp, which lead to my baptism. I am so grateful for the opportunity I was given. I’ve learned that I cannot do things on my own. I need God’s help. I am happier, more hopeful and I see the world in a brighter light. The happiness that I thought I would never achieve has been given to me through him.

I am so grateful for the opportunity I was given. I’ve learned that I cannot do things on my own. I need God’s help. I am happier, more hopeful and I see the world in a brighter light. The happiness that I thought I would never achieve has been given to me through him.

      We are long time CT members. We were a part of the Keller Campus at both previous locations. We served with the volunteer team at SOS local. I, Bob, operate a trucking/distribution center where I use my corporate connections to receive large pallets of donations that I distributes to several ministry partners, including CT.   We served every Sunday in many aspects including Care Team, Set Up and Tear Down, CT Kids, Small Group Leaders, etc. When the decision was made to close the Keller Campus, we were crushed. We had poured blood, sweat, and tears into a campus and a church that we loved. After much prayer and tears, we made the decision not to make the move to Argyle. It was just too far a drive from our NRH home.  However, after a month of visiting other churches, we found ourselves at the Argyle Campus on Christmas Eve where we felt the Lord leading us to be an active part of CT again. We are again actively serving, leading groups, and faithfully giving our time, talents, and resources.   Even though we were disappointed in the decision to close Keller, we ultimately saw God’s bigger plan not just for CT but for us as well. We would define this as a life changing moment when that truth sank into our hearts.

Even though we were disappointed in the decision to close Keller, we ultimately saw God’s bigger plan not just for CT but for us as well. We would define this as a life changing moment when that truth sank into our hearts.

      Before I sought God, I tried to identify myself through the things I could do or be: my academic performance, whether or not I was like-able / could make friends, or my appearance. I became depressed and lacked self worth, and suffered from bad habits like bulimia. I was desperate and at my wits ends.  During my sophomore year in high school, I lost friends that I identified my worth in. I pleaded to God for help and was accepted to Westlake Academy. In gratitude, I got involved with Cross Timbers students. When I went, I gathered the courage and had the most awkward conversation of my life with some of the girls there. Despite my anxiety, I continued going and started attending Sunday Groups. One day, a student takeover night was announced and I volunteered as a speaker, despite having barely spoken to anyone. God spoke through my 7-minute sermon, and that allowed me to gain a foothold.  One of my decisions I made when I chose to follow his plan was to attempt to be fully present in life. Now, when a new student joins Cross Timbers I try to be the one that makes them feel like they belong, because I know what it feels like to be an outsider. My outlook on my future has changed. Now I know that God knows my future and is not surprised at anything. Wherever I go, he will have a place for me and will use me.  My life has changed, I do not regret feeling too much. When I finally pleaded to God to remove me from my situation, at my lowest point, he met me where I was. My identity became rooted in my relationship with Christ and what he thinks about me, not what others think about me.

When I finally pleaded to God to remove me from my situation, at my lowest point, he met me where I was. My identity became rooted in my relationship with Christ and what he thinks about me, not what others think about me.

        
  
 
  
    
  
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    I have always loved Jesus, believed in Him since I was a kiddo. But In my adulthood, I experienced Him holding me together and surrounding me with people to help keep me standing.  04.05.06 will go down as the worst day of my life. Over the phone, I heard my brother say,  "Daddy's gone".  I couldn't grasp that my INVINCIBLE Dad committed SUICIDE. He shot himself in the head while at his worksite. I had just seen him on his birthday, 04.01.06, he seemed fine. There was so much anger, many questions and emotions.  Why couldn't I have stopped it? Why didn’t I have the words to say to keep him alive? I went through a FLOOD of struggles after losing my Dad. I struggled with my relationship with God. I was angry with Him for letting this happen. I was in complete grief and was disappointed in God, my Dad and life. I struggled with anxiety, sadness and heartbreak.  Because of this tragic event in my life, overtime, I grew closer to God. I don't forget the hardships; they are what helped shape me. Jesus has given me strength to go out of my comfort zone, put one foot in front of the other and let my guard down.  There are people I may not know but need to meet because their story and my story might need to mesh for the story that He has already written.  He has also given me the opportunity to volunteer at church in CT justice.  I am thankful for all of the many blessings in my life. I know that God is working this thing called life all around us. He brought my family and me to Cross Timbers and I am so happy he did.

I keep drawing nearer & nearer to him as each day passes. I know that he is working this thing called life all around us... he brought me & my family to CrossTimbers & I am so happy he did. I see him placing people in my life who I cherish so much...